Running Away

This is what just went down here...

I was in my room changing the sheets and I hollered for Lily a few times and she didn't answer so I came into the living room to check on her. She heard me and opened the gate and started downstairs. That is a BIG No-No in our house. So here is the conversation that transpired after.

Me: "Lily, what do you think you're doing. You know you can't go downstairs without asking me first!!"

Lily: (starts crying) "I'm leaving!!"

Me: "What?!?!?" (My heart just stopped)

Lily: (crying harder) "I'm leaving!!!"

Me: "Why, sweetheart, what's wrong??"

Lily: "You don't love me anymore"

Me: (knife to the heart) "Lily, why would you say that? Why do you think that??"

Lily: "Because you were yelling at me"

Me: (at this point I believe she took the knife out of my heart, sharpened it, stabbed me again and started twisting it) "Lily, you weren't listening to me. I had to yell at you to get you to listen to me."

Lily: "Yeah, but why did you make me stand in the corner?"

Me: "Because you lied to me, and you know better than to lie to me."

Me: "Lily, I love you very VERY much...You are my most favorite little girl in the whole wide world. I don't ever, EVER want you to run away from home. If you're upset about something, then you need to come and talk to me about it. I don't want you to ever be scared to talk to me about something. I really love talking to you about stuff, and I want you to love talking to me, too. Ok??"

Lily: "Ok, Mom. Can I pick out a movie to watch??"

Me: (shocked at just how quickly she got over this) "Ok, is there anything else you want to talk about?"

Lily: (happily, like she has not a care in the world) "No, I just want to pick out a movie"

It took me about 15 minutes to quit crying. But apparently she has all but forgotten about it. I don't know if she was just trying to get my attention or not, but what a way to knock me down. I really thought that my heart was breaking in two. I just don't know where she even got the idea. It's not like she watches anything where running away would even be an option. Actually, now that I think about it, I think she has a book called "I was just so Mad" and he "runs away" in it. I bet that's where that came from. Don't you love it when I type out my thoughts!!! I just needed to put this down so I would have a record of the first time she broke my heart - I mean the first time she tried to run away!!!!